Thursday, January 17, 2013

A hard post to write...

There is no easy way to say this, so I'll just start....Dustin and I found out last Monday that I was miscarrying.  We went in for a sonogram due to some symptoms I was having and there was no heartbeat and no growth since our last sonogram in December when I measured 7 weeks (which we saw the heartbeat at that time).  We were obviously deeply saddened by the news and chose to wait and let everything happen naturally at home. 

I've always wanted to be honest and real on my blog, but this was hard to write.  It's hard to become vulnerable and announce this type of thing to everyone, and it feels unnatural - it is unnatural.  But, a part of me knows that the way in which I heal best is by sharing things, talking about them and letting people know our story.  That's the main reason I created this blog in the first place.  I hope to post my miscarriage story on here someday, as I feel like I greatly benefitted spiritually, emotionally and physically from reading and hearing about other's journey with this.  I hope maybe someday our story can be a comfort and hope to others in this area, as well as our story with Liam's CHD. 

We have hope and faith that our Father, Lord and Creator will turn this into good for us.  We have already seen and heard evidence that it has already been used for good, and I have no doubt God was with me, even preparing me and my family, well before this event ever took place.  My confidence is in His faithfulness and that His timing is always best, even when we don't understand it.  We serve a good God!

"Therefore, we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."  2 Corinthians 4:16-18


  1. Oh, Tara ... I am saddened with you. Hold on tight to the hope you mention and know that I'm sending love and prayers your way. Your faith shines bright, and I'm certain this is yet another experience God is weaving into your life in order to bring someone else closer to Him. Lots of love, my friend!

  2. Tara, this hurts my heart :( Praying for peace for your sweet family.


  3. Oh I am so sorry. :( I saw the title and I thought I am so sad. :( You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  4. Oh Tara, I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. Take time to grieve and know that it will get better. What I can promise you, after having 2 miscarriages before Sierra, a miscarriage and a 2nd trimester loss between Sierra and Bodie, and a miscarriage since Bodie is this...healthy babies come after miscarriages. And healing comes after miscarriages. It takes time, but healing comes. I look at my sweet babies and I know God grew our family the way He saw fit and I take great comfort in knowing that, had I not had the miscarriages, Bodie and Sierra wouldn't be here. So take heart - as painful as it is right now (believe me, I know), God IS in control and He's building your family. And know that you will have a sweet baby waiting for you in Heaven some day. Sending you love and prayers for peace and healing. And feel free to email me if you want to talk. I've been there. I get it. It stinks. :-( <3 hugs,

  5. I'm so sorry Tara! My heart hurts for you. Please know that we're praying for you and Dustin. Big hugs!

  6. Tara I'm so sorry. Your faith continues to inspire me. Such grace at such a trying time. Blessings to you and your family. I know God has amazing things for you. Hugs!

  7. Tara - I am so sorry that this happened!! I feel for you & Dustin & pray for your comfort during this time. Not many people know but I had a miscarriage when we lived in Alaska. Please know you have many people that love & are behind you both! You all have been through so much & are an inspiration to many.. Love y'all bunches, Teathet

  8. I'm so sorry Tara for your loss. I am also very sorry that I am just now reading this post. I have been terrible about checking everyone else's updates the past few weeks with all I've had going on. My heart goes out to you my dear friend. {{{HUG}}} Keeping you close in thoughts and prayers!