On the homefront here, we have been staying busy as usual and trying to find a new place to call home. House hunting is proving to be a discouraging and exhausting journey for us =( The market is completely different then the last time we went to buy a house, and properties are going very quickly. The only good coming from it right now is that our dependence on God as provider is deepening as is our faith and trust that he has a home for us...somewhere!
Last week we went down to San Antonio (unfortunately it was for a funeral of a very close friend of Dustin's family) and was able to spend some needed time away with family, even if it was a short trip. It's always great to get to travel down there and we are thankful most of his family is close by. Liam also had a friend this time, as Dustin's sister and niece Ella (1.5 years) came down also. They had the best time together and made me really want a little girl in our family, lol!!
Speaking of family life, I'm just going to be open and honest that we have experienced another loss which prompted my doctor to do some blood tests. They have discovered I have a blood clotting disorder that they think is preventing me from holding a pregnancy. The redeeming part about it (I'm trying to see God's purpose in all of this) is that it makes Liam's story even more a miracle, as the chances of me carrying him to full term were slim and we didn't even know it until now. I'm just going to say God has a plan in the timing of the news, and it is a comfort to finally have an answer and explanation for what's been happening...I know many times with cases such as mine, there are no answers, so I am very grateful. Although we have some decisions to make going forward, we find hope that someday our family will grow plus 1 =)
Liam is doing great, despite having his first ear infection last week....I almost took pictures to mark that milestone, ha! He is growing into a big boy at 3.5 years old, and I just sit in wonder and amazement of how far he has come and what a miracle gift he is to us. He will soon have his first "last day of school" coming up and I am getting anxious to sign him up for some summer camps, but am waiting to see where we will be living first! He loves school, so I know summer will be an adjustment for him (and me! lol).
I think my posture right now is of such surrender and dependence on God. It seems every area of our life right now hinges on what His plans are for us and it's still unknown to us how it will unfold. Although it's hard, we are choosing to stand on His promises and walk in joy of what we know is to come =)
"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:1-5
Tara,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry things aren't going well for your dreams for a second child. I just wanted to offer you a little hope, first of all, I have TWO friends who have the same clotting disorder, it must be very common! One of my best college friends had a son, then tried for her 2nd for several years and I think she miscarried at least 5 times or more. She did get pregnant again once they figured things out and she had to give herself shots almost her entire pregnancy, but she was able to keep the baby that time. So I think there are things that can be done?? You should check with your doctor about it if you haven't already. Don't give up hope! ;) I'll be praying for you. Also- maybe you know but Kerigan didn't come easy for us, either. We have infertility (different issues, but still just as frustrating), and she took 2 years and several shots/treatments too. Why can't it just be easy?! Especially for good moms and dads who deserve another baby. It is so hard when it doesn't come easy for people like that. I struggled with that so much. Anyway, I hope that helps! I am so sorry for your losses, and I pray that things will work out in God's perfect timing!
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog for a while via Joye/Ethan's blog (a friend of my SIL).
I am so sorry about your miscarriages and clotting problems. After our 1st son was stillborn at 24.5 weeks due to a clotting problem (undiagnosed until after his birth), I have had 2 more children with no problems. We also had a miscarriage at 6 weeks before getting pregnant a 3rd (son who is 4.5) and then 4th time (daughter who is 20 months). I had to start Lovenox injections at 6 weeks with both pregnancies and do them 2x per day throughout the pregnancy and then for 6 weeks post delivery. The Drs also do lots of growth scans (U/S every month) which I never minded (we got LOTS of pics of the babies where as most people only get to see their baby 1-2 times during pregnancy) and I had non-stress tests done 2x per week the last 8 weeks to ensure the the babies were moving around as they should.
Best of luck to you and your family! God's timing is perfect...4 years after losing our son, I started seeing His timing in growing our family (and not just our immediate but also our church/friend family). He is AMAZING! Prayers to you all!
Jennifer
I am so sorry fro your loss Tara. I am glad to hear thought that they found the issue. Praying that your dream of adding to your special family will one day come true. {{{HUG}}}
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