On the homefront here, we have been staying busy as usual and trying to find a new place to call home. House hunting is proving to be a discouraging and exhausting journey for us =( The market is completely different then the last time we went to buy a house, and properties are going very quickly. The only good coming from it right now is that our dependence on God as provider is deepening as is our faith and trust that he has a home for us...somewhere!
Last week we went down to San Antonio (unfortunately it was for a funeral of a very close friend of Dustin's family) and was able to spend some needed time away with family, even if it was a short trip. It's always great to get to travel down there and we are thankful most of his family is close by. Liam also had a friend this time, as Dustin's sister and niece Ella (1.5 years) came down also. They had the best time together and made me really want a little girl in our family, lol!!
Speaking of family life, I'm just going to be open and honest that we have experienced another loss which prompted my doctor to do some blood tests. They have discovered I have a blood clotting disorder that they think is preventing me from holding a pregnancy. The redeeming part about it (I'm trying to see God's purpose in all of this) is that it makes Liam's story even more a miracle, as the chances of me carrying him to full term were slim and we didn't even know it until now. I'm just going to say God has a plan in the timing of the news, and it is a comfort to finally have an answer and explanation for what's been happening...I know many times with cases such as mine, there are no answers, so I am very grateful. Although we have some decisions to make going forward, we find hope that someday our family will grow plus 1 =)
Liam is doing great, despite having his first ear infection last week....I almost took pictures to mark that milestone, ha! He is growing into a big boy at 3.5 years old, and I just sit in wonder and amazement of how far he has come and what a miracle gift he is to us. He will soon have his first "last day of school" coming up and I am getting anxious to sign him up for some summer camps, but am waiting to see where we will be living first! He loves school, so I know summer will be an adjustment for him (and me! lol).
I think my posture right now is of such surrender and dependence on God. It seems every area of our life right now hinges on what His plans are for us and it's still unknown to us how it will unfold. Although it's hard, we are choosing to stand on His promises and walk in joy of what we know is to come =)
"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:1-5