Sunday, October 4, 2009

10.01.09 - All Alone

Without my new son in the room, the hospital felt like more of a prison than a joyful place to celebrate a new life. Despite the wonderful friends and family we had to come and pass the time and pray with us while visiting (Sincerely thank you to ALL of you who kept us in your thoughts and prayers, we are BLESSED to have you in our life), the comfort they could provide lasted only for a short while before my emotional roller coaster began again. You never expect to be a new mom and not be with your baby. That was by far the hardest part for me to bear. I prayed continuously for Liam. Dustin and I had to encourage one another and keep reminding each other that this is “all in God’s hands.” I had always said at the beginning of my pregnancy that this is truly the Lord’s baby, and not my own. He simply blessed Dustin and I and chose us to be his parents. And if that were true, he is still in the Lord’s hands, forever and always.

It was also a new experience for Dustin and I as we are a relatively newly married couple having to cope in a new way, together for the first time for a family, and not just ourselves. It is a whole new dynamic for us, with both of us handling grief and emotions in different ways and trying to be there for each other. It has definitely grown us closer as a couple and also in our walk with God.

Finally, Friday morning I was discharged from Baylor and headed straight to Medical City to see my little Liam. What an anticipation I had, for I really had not seen my new son except for in pictures and video.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

1 comment :

  1. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, dustin, and little liam. I admire your strength and your faith and know that god is watching over all of you. We will be thinking about you tomorrow, we love you all,
    Kevin, lindsey, and lukas